I am very grateful that even though some days are a struggle I face them without medication. I use supplements, I take vitamins, but I have been off of all anxiety medication for 8 years now.
There are days where I wish I could numb myself. I wish I could have the help that I so desperately want. But I am not interested in the side effects and the cost and the regular doctor visits. I am not interested in being unable to trust myself without a pill.
This is not to throw shade at anyone who does medicate. I think we each have our own journey for lack of better words and I have tried that route, but it didn’t go well for me. I have close family members whose quality of life has increased tenfold because of the help they have from anxiety medication. I don’t begrudge anyone what they think they need, or choose to try.
As for me, I don’t like the person I am when I’m medicated, and I want to find natural ways to fight certain things.
Would life be simpler if I weren’t anxious? Definitely… but I have spent the last year or so showing myself what I’m capable of.
Redheaded Jill 
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