Sometimes my introverted self loves to have a group to sit with. A small crowd to hide within the bigger crowd. Other times I long to just sit, alone, and be. Like one of many in a class.
Now, at church everyone is super nice and welcoming and kind, so I don’t HAVE to sit alone. Even people I haven’t met or don’t know well shouldn’t or wouldn’t turn me away. When my brother’s family is there I always sit with them, and when they’re not I oftentimes sit alone or with the preacher’s wife. (She has kindly adopted me when she sees me by myself.)
This week I was content to sit alone. I had a long day with the kids. I was feeling good, but socially tired.
So when I arrived for Bible class 60 seconds before it began I went to the empty side of the room and sat in a mostly empty row. (The class I was attending was in a side hall with only 20-30 people.)
As class was beginning I heard my name being called, I looked across the aisle and my extremely extroverted friend was waving at me.
“We saved you a seat!”
“Sorry, I didn’t see you!”
“Silly introverts…”
I stayed where I was. For several reasons. 1: I was able to spread out more in my current position, having no one next to me. 2: It would have been more noticeable to get up and move while class was beginning. 3: I didn’t want to.
I appreciate being continuously invited to things by my extroverted friend. I also really like her friend group. However, I have my guard up too. I think I don’t want to be too dependent on one person. That’s how I have often been as an anxious attachment style, and I’m working on it.
Redheaded Jill 
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